requiem

devoid of any feelings as i stare into the sun/i saw her rotting in my mind, she, my only one/once upon a time she was graceful, dancing through my veins with feet fast and daring, stares at me and mocks, glares and taunts and smiles and sighs, then welcomes me in her arms as i made up reasons why i needed to be with her, some true, those out of despair, some in mumblings of weakening as i long for my share, of her....justified/justified for i have paid, paid her with endless nights and lost time and half of my sanity, paid while my reasons beg for me to wake up and see me, that i have paid too dearly, paid even more for she betrayed me, my only one, she screams now rather than hum her calls, and what were once dances had turned into pushes and pulls/i dont mind at all if that was all that she had left, what is there to fill me anyway other than her theft, but she had left with what she got when i could have paid even more for her to stay, she had left and leave me a shadow rather than a soul within her clay/she left me and i have been watching her die as time goes by

nothing realy just killing time

my first blog, im not the blogger type, but im trying to do something new and this one is the easiest there is that i havent done yet....so here i am blogging....with nothing to say, honestly i was just trying to learn how to use adsense but there are lots of reading needed and none of it is sticking to my mind right now so i just click whatever there is to click and voila im doing my first blog....im not the blogger type, yeah im that private or i guess paranoid, i dont share me, well that is what im doing right now but at least no one i know will now that its me, hiding behind a realy cool name, sid, yeah i think its a cool name...but who will care if im doing a blog, no one, i know i know....but im doing this for comfort, just for comfort coz ive nothing to hide realy, but this is in an irational way, scary, lol, so thats why the fake name...this is funy as if someone is actualy gonna read this.....like i said im trying to do something new, im that bored too....umm...back to adsense i guess lol coz im that broke too, haha...okay this is enough for now, watch out for my next blog, contains the same thing you found in here, nothing, well atleast i can improve my meager english with this...k bye ^_^